Remember when Seamus wanted to “lose weight”
Danznewz plays the best Bane
Today was terrible ..
Everything just came crashing down
The sadness and hurting that I had held back now overtook me
I was locked inside my own mind
Lost within myself unable to shake away the sadness
We are all connected
Everything is connected
Sometimes I feel like it would be best if humans returned or got back to connecting with nature
Sometimes life just hits you hard
Life changes us all
I sit here now at 1:15 at night just barely wanting to continue whatever this is
I dare to call this a “life”..To think that you would take in something just to destroy it and abuse it
I shutter to think that anyone would call that a life
The struggle that happens to me everyday takes a toll…from physically to mentally
From feeling pressure of my body being worn down, to my soul that is struggling to keep itself from being tainted by the horrors of this world
I’ve been so terribly corrupted by this…I can feel myself..being slowly tainted by this day to day madness and macabre
Slowly sucking the life out of me till its no more then a mere trickle
Is that what you expect of me?
To take the punishment? To take the abuse? To take the pain?
And just continue to go one like it never happened at all..like it was nothing..?
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW CONFUSING THAT IS?!?
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MANY EMOTIONS I HAVE TO CONTAIN JUST TO SURVIVE
JUST TO BREATHE??
Is that what I am?
Some stupid little puppet to use when you see fit?
To take advantage of??…
I’m tired of these feelings
Why must I always have this constant struggle of self loathing and anger inside me?
The pain is so unbearable I can’t even sleep
I’m tired of the sadness that comes with feeling unwanted
I’m tired of the constant struggle I have to endure just to show people my mask
Just to show people a lie
If only they could understand that I wish I could just “change”
Damn-it!! I’m tired of just blabbering and it meaning nothing!!
To wither away
To be forgotten