Even Introverts like me want someone to talk to every now and again…..
I don’t feel so good
I think I might be sick..
The question is what kind of sick am I?
I really wish someone would hug me
And tell me they love me
Even if its a lie
Even if we both know its a lie
I would love to hear those words..
SSohpkc (seamus)..If it wasn’t for you being so funny
Id honestly be having a nervous breakdown right now
I tried to get better…I really wanted to get better
I tried so very hard
But I just don’t see how I can do it anymore
I have fought for so long..so very long
I have survived everything in my life
Survived the people who have used me only when they had time for me
Fighting the lies of people…
The hurt people have caused me..
Every evil..I somehow came out breathing..
I thought by blocking out..Everything in my life
Destroying all my emotions
By killing 98 percent of myself
I would somehow save the rest
I would have my Stalingrad victory
That by shutting down everything
I have intern..tainted my soul
Left it to be corrupted..bleeding into me..This infection
Now I lay..tired and sick..tainted by the very soul I tried to save
No more fighting..
I don’t think I have much time left
The borrowed time of life
I’m slowly fading away
I want to fade away
To merely disappear…
To finally admit defeat..
I think I would like that
I hate the majority of people on this earth
But I myself more then I could ever hate them
Because I’m sure what everyone says about me is right…
I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away
Overheard people call me ugly in Walmart.. -_-…..