Hello my name is John Leerskov. Welcome to my blog c: it is a pleasure to meet all of you..I am a very nice person who will talk to anyone..I suffer from severe depression..but I am trying to survive with it. I am very spiritual and love all types of music. If you suffer from depression too or just wanna talk to me (I'd be shocked if you did) I'm always here -L

Can’t find a purpose..

I need to have a purpose… A reason to exist 

I don’t want to exist to merely exist 

But I can’t find anything to exist for….

I can’t find my purpose..

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1 day ago

Happy birthday to me….

Why are my birthdays always so depressing? 

Why are they constant reminders of how alone and pathetic I really am.. 

Just every year its the same thing.

Me wishing for this day to be over..

So happy fucking birthday to me I suppose…

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4 days ago

Who is the bigger fool? Which fool am I?

Most people live in the future, always looking ahead to the next big change that will make there lives complete and  seem meaningful…

The others live entirely in the past, never truly able to move forward from the way it used to be..which in the end means the way things will never be again.

I don’t know who is the bigger fool..

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1 week ago

Sometimes when all is hopeless 

When you’re watching everything that made your existence an existence in the first place fade away 

And you’re so lost that all you can see is darkness overpowering the light 

Close your eyes try to remember the loving moments in life that made it meaningful 

And hold on to those moments..escape reality 

if only for a little while…..

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1 week ago

My General mood

My Mood consists of  the small little things that make me happy

To sadness..at seeing other people truly happy and free 

Suddenly comes envy and a deep anger..

Then to irritation because I am angry and envious and there is no point in being 

Finally being so disgusted with myself and the way I am ….that I fall back it to my depression and self loathing…

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1 week ago

I just can’t get to sleep anymore..

The nightmares are just to horrid 

There almost as terrifying as my reality 

There both becoming unbearable 

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2 weeks ago

Without any light condemn me to live
Condemn me to lie..
Inside I am dead…

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2 weeks ago

I wish you would remember me…

It would be nice to hold your hand and just look up at the moon 

But that’s just my foolish dream…

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2 weeks ago

I’m a fool..

For believing in someone who obviously wants to forget me…

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2 weeks ago

I’m tired of feeling forgotten,unwanted,and unloved..

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2 weeks ago
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